Am I Real or a Knock Off?

I knew the Oakley sunglasses I bought for my kids in Thailand were knock-offs.  But I thought they would last longer than two days.  #Fail.

And those Nikes I picked up in Korea?  Same deal, though they lasted several weeks.  #Another fail. Don’t you hate when that happens?

One of the most valued character qualities today is authenticity or “realness.”

The opposites of authentic and real include counterfeit, fake, false, hypocrite.

The most common reason people give for not following Jesus is there are too many hypocrites in the church.

Don’t you hate when people who call themselves Christians seem more like knock offs?

The writer of Hebrews encourages us to “draw near to God with a sincere heart…”

Sincere is another synonym for authentic.  It comes from Latin, sin cere, which means “without wax.”

In Roman times there was a practice of making knock off pottery.  The good stuff was made fully from good clay.  But the cracks and flaws in less than perfect pieces could be fixed by filling those fissures in with wax.  When the piece was painted, you couldn’t tell there were defects.  Until you exposed it to heat and the wax melted.

You wanted to make sure the pottery you purchased was genuine, authentic, sin cere.

Surely we desire that those who say they follow Jesus do so authentically, sincerely.

Personally, that’s my desire.Which prompts me to ask the question:  Am I the real thing, or am I a knock off Christian?

The psalmist invites God to “search me, know me, reveal any offensive (unauthentic?) ways in me.” (Psalm 139)  When I do that, God is kind to tell me how much He loves me, how pleased with me He is.

Then He is also kind—and gracious—to point out some areas where this is a little wax, where I am not so real as I like to think.  Where there is danger—for me–of being a knock off Christian.  Here are three:


I pray.  Probably more than the average Christian.  When people ask for prayer, I usually do it right then. I teach on prayer.  I lead a ministry of prayer.  I have a profound saying:  The work of God is done on our knees.  Then we go find out what happened.

So I should feel pretty good about my authentic life of prayer.  But I know the truth.I know I don’t pray as much as people think I do, or as much as I wish I did.

I too often move ahead in my own power in some activity, neglecting to give it to the Lord and request His anointing.I’m so busy that I often cut short my time with God.

And I certainly don’t experience the effectiveness of answered prayer that I would love to see.


I love to give.  Whether it is money, or gifts, or connections or ideas or opportunities—I get immeasurable joy from giving.

Then I read Jesus’ commendation of the widow giving her two coins—her all—and I know I have never given till it really hurts.

I have given when it is uncomfortable or inconvenient.  I have given in secret and openly.

But I have never given at such great sacrifice that I felt at risk.

Being authentic

My bio quotes others as saying: “Judy is known for her realness…”

When I speak, I tell real, vulnerable stories from my life. When I write I include the good times and the challenging times.  I am honest about strengths and weaknesses, successes and struggle.


But I know my heart.  I know the stories I won’t tell, the secrets I will keep.  Which of course is often appropriate.  Not everything should be told.

But it is hard, even in sharing with vulnerability, not to give the appearance of greater strength, spirituality, success than is really true.  It can be difficult to live up to your own reputation.

I’m not putting myself down here.  I’m not filled with guilt at my imperfections and failures.  I am just seeking to tell the truth to myself—that there are areas of my life with a little wax, where I am not always authentic–and to keep growing into a true follower of Jesus.

What about you?  Real or knock off?  Are there areas harboring a little wax?

C2013 Judy Douglass